from︙Nicholas B. Jacobsen
“May we go forward in repentance which does not require individual culpability and shows how a community own and understands the reverberations of its actions and its realities. May we seek repentance, which means to walk in a different direction. It's so much more than, "I'm sorry."
— Paraphrased from Reverend Serene Jones on On Being
I am a seventh-generation Utah-Mormon, a child of British, Danish, Welsh, Swedish, and U.S. American migrants. After being pushed out of their homes in New York, Ohio, Missouri, and Illinois my people migrated across the Great Plains into the Great Basin. There they pushed the Newe (Goshutes), Shoshone Bannock, Eastern Shoshone, Nuuchi-u (Utes), Nuwu (Southern Paiutes), and Diné (Navajo) out of their ancestral homelands, where their food lives, where their waters run, where their creation stories emerged, where their families have been for millennia. They called this massacre site and their new home, Utah. This is where I am from. I am in love with the land I was raised with/in. This is not the land that my body evolved with. This is not the place from which my language emerged. I am in love with someone else's homeland.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, or Mormonism, was established between 1820-1844 by the White settler-colonist, Joseph Smith. In the spring of 1820 on Seneca land (western New York), Joseph saw/claimed to see a vision in which God and Jesus appeared to him embodied. Mormonism is a uniquely American religion, not only because it was created on this land, but because their central sacred text, The Book of Mormon, claims to be a "record of God's dealings with ancient inhabitants of the Americas."
Mormonism teaches that the Americas were "set apart" from an up-to-that-point supercontinent during the Flood of Noah in which God cleansed this land; purifying it through erasure, removal, and genocide. Then, around 600 A.D. ancient Israeli emigrants, who The Book of Mormon describes as a "white, and exceedingly fair and delightsome, flee to the Americans with God as their guide. This group of migrants split into two socio-political groups. One of these groups, the Lamanites, rebel against God and so God curses them with "a skin of blackness [so] that they might not be enticing unto my people." This cursed people are said to be the ancestors of contemporary Indigenous people of this land.
The Book of Mormon goes on to promise that if/when Indigenous peoples of this land accept The Book of Mormon as their own "they shall be a pure and delightsome people." In editions of this book released between 1840 and 1981, that same text read, "they shall be a white and a delightsome people." In a video from Book of Mormon Central this change is addressed as "a small change because in Joseph Smith's day the dictionary definition of 'white' and 'pure' were nearly identical," ignoring the white-supremacy of "Joseph Smith's day" that shaped the definition of those words.
and of my breath, people of my flesh is a partial record
of my people and the lands I was raised with/in.
My family has been Mormon and Utahn for as long
as either of those two things have existed.
All of my direct ancestors were in Utah by 1884
and they never left.
I was raised on Nuwu (Southern Pauite) lands
in a place my people call Saint George, Utah.
But this is not the land my flesh evolved with.
This is not the place from which my language emerged.
I am in love with with this land, the land that raised me.
I am in love with someone else's homeland.
About Nicholas B. Jacobsen
Nicholas B. Jacobsen is a research-based artist concentrating on assumptions about the natural world and our relationships with and place within it. They are a seventh- generation Utah-Mormon, a Euro-American raised in the traditional homelands of the Nuwu (Southern Paiutes), near the Pine Valley Mountains and Virgin River in Southwestern Utah. Jacobsen’s work explores their personal and ancestral connections to settler-colonialism, hetero-patriarchy, human-exceptionalism, Whiteness, and Mormonism via performance, video, installation, digital collage, and found-object sculpture. Through vulnerability and deeply personal narratives they hope to unsettle many of the foundational myths of their upbringing and bring awareness to histories that are often ignored in our dominant culture.
They are currently completing a Master of Fine Arts degree in Art & Ecology at the University of New Mexico (UNM). Jacobsen has received multiple awards including: scholarships and fellowships at UNM, Omaha Arts and Entertainment's "Best Emerging Artist" and "Best New Media Artist," has been recognized as one of Omaha's "Five Artists to Watch," and worked as an assistant to Jun Kaneko. Their works have been exhibited and collected throughout the U.S.
Website: www.nicholasbjacobsen.com
Instagram: @nicholasbjacobsen
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Episode 2︙Family, Mormonism, and Whiteness
Nicholas sat down with me to speak about his exhibition, from, which seeks to unsettle the Mormon assumptions of masculinity, white supremacy, and capitalism (i.e. the foundations of U.S. culture).
JUL 19, 2020